Blog 32: "Looking and Seeing"
Blog 32: “Looking and Seeing”
May 29, 2019
Original Painting: “Looking…”, Acrylic on Canvas 24×30, 2/14/18
After taking a few days off from blogging over the Memorial Day weekend, I realized that I had been looking at this process of blog from a less than beneficial perspective. I don’t want to say it was wrong because, at the time, it was the prerogative I needed, and it was the process I chose. I have learned much about myself and, plan to learn more. It is not the number of days that I write that is important, even with the 59-day commitment. It is the commitment to a practice of looking at myself, my path and my choices…owning each part of it and loving myself. It is realizing when rest is needed in the practice. It is calling in conversations with others as support or distraction or just because. It is writing for no one else but myself, first. Sharing it as gift without expectation. It is creating simply because I am an artist at heart. It is what I do. I paint…I write…accent spaces, because that is part of how I see and express myself.
Looking and seeing are very different. I can look with my eyes and miss a bunch, or I can choose to see. Seeing requires knowledge, wisdom, understanding, interpretation, perspective, love and compassion. How is it that for years, I wasn’t seeing myself or letting myself be seen by most people? I reserved the deeper stuff for my subconscious to keep under wraps. A friend shared, just last night, “70% of what we think is in the subconscious and are negative thoughts.” We don’t even know we are programming ourselves in a negative way. Affirmations are not a cheeky practice for the “Mary Sunshines” of the world. They are useful tools to reprogram our subconscious minds. To battle the nay-saying subconscious, affirmations are best used at night before going to bed. This is just part of awakening the seeing part of the self and the seeing part of intuition.
I am 100% responsible for everything in my life. This is something I have owned, taught and used as a mantra for years. Teaching this principle and this practice is only a demonstration that I can create the life I choose. Learning it, for myself, makes it possible. This idea about teaching and learning was in my reading this morning, “The Pilgrimage” by Paulo Coelho. The exact quote is this, “Teaching is only demonstrating it is possible. Learning makes it possible for yourself.” If I own that I am 100% responsible for everything in my life, then I am responsible for how I see myself, show myself to others and manage the space in between from my perspective. I am not responsible for what others think or feel about me; I am only in charge of me. No other person can actually walk a mile in my shoes, see through my eyes, or live from my experience. They can learn from my demonstrating living my life on purpose. I can only teach what is possible from my perspective and my experience. Others can learn to make it possible for themselves, or not. There is always the “or not” option.
What I see when I look at this painting, is the eye of the Divine. I see the wise sage in the reflection of the pupil. I aspire to be the sage in the reflection of the Divine. This may be a grand delusion, and it is a prayer. I see the colors of the landscape and I see my internal world coming to life. “Looking…”, reminds me to see, all that I am. To see my potential in the landscape around me, the relationships and teachers that are with me each day. My process for teaching is in my art, my writing, my coaching, my simple conversations, my presence, and my willingness to be SEEN. I am also learning what is possible. My hope is that my demonstration is enough, and I am always open to learning. I am grateful for all the teachers and lessons that have helped and guided me. My teachers are more than people, flowers, nature, animals, and birds. They are anything that catches my eye, my intuition, takes my breath or stirs my heart. I will not stop learning. I hold a great vision for myself and I want it to be seen, shared and expanded. To the journey, Blessings and peace.
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