Day 23 of 59 Days: "Vibe of A Tribe"
Day 23: “Vibe of A Tribe”
May 13, 2019
Original Painting: Untitled, Acrylic on Canvas 30×40, 3/10/2019
For me, I connect to place first and then people. If the energy of a space or place doesn’t feel right to me, I will usually leave. As an extroverted person, many would surmise, it would be people first. Well, my history is I have moved a bunch. I was always the new kid. I can talk with most anyone, small talk or deep talk…in all my moves and travels there are two places that feel like home to me, one is the north end of Wrightsville Beach and the other is Ireland. I have lived in Wilmington, NC but not at the beach. I have family there and it is where my mother lived for many years before she died. I have never lived in Ireland, at least not in this lifetime. And, it feels like home to me the most, of any place I have ever been.
Could it be the fantasy of the travel that makes a place speak in such a way? I don’t think so. As I think of Wrightsville Beach, I have spent many hours on that sand. I am always a visitor. When I am there, my favorite thing to do is to walk the beach just before sunrise. There is a stillness and rhythm of this time of day on the beach. The sound of the waves, the waking of the birds and the rising of the sun painting the clouds and sky. It is a divine concert. It seems to reset something in my heart and spirit with each step.
Ireland is a place of my people, or at least the part of my heritage that I claim. My maternal great-grandparents came from Ireland. I remember Nanny Murray, her face, her stoic presences as a shadow in my early childhood. I felt it then and still feel now, that Nanny Murray has my back. She was a force. This is a theme in the women in my family. There may be a bit of romanticism here and, I am okay with that!
My recent pilgrimage to Ireland has something awakening in me. I say it is awakening, because it certainly isn’t completely awake, nor have I gleaned the complete message from my experience. It may take the rest of my life with a few more trip to the Emerald Isle to decode the message. I am willing to accept this process. There were moments on the land in Ireland when it whispered to me, or called me to walk in a certain direction, or the story of the place dripped with history and lore. To say these experiences, touch my heart is an understatement. They spoke in a language that I do not speak yet understood. They wove through my blood and bones like the serpentine of a snake. And they left a tremendous longing, for what I do not know. As I left Ireland and the plane was getting ready to take off, I looked out the window, said goodbye and tears came from a very deep place. I was surprised.
This painting came a month after my return. It has a vibe to it, with the sky kissing the land and maybe the ocean dancing as well. I don’t feel I have my tribe here, but I feel their vibe. I feel an ancient connection, romanticized or not, to Ireland. It called to me for years and it still calls. This painting is something I look at every day. It hangs in my living room. Each time I look at it, I see something new or feel some part of the awakening process. I am allowing the process to have its way with me, its own pacing and timing. I cannot rush this. I share it with you here, briefly. There is nothing else to say…until the next time, Ireland.
Blessings and peace on your journey.
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