Intense, In Tents, Intents
By Beth Blair
April 28, 2017
I have been told, since I was a child, I am intense with a “strong” personality! Or brutally direct or “over the top” in my pursuit of something. I will say, with confidence, that I resemble these remarks, happily! I am hearing Inigo Montoya, from The Princess Bride, in my head (with a Spanish accent) … “You keep using that word. I do not
think it means what you think it means.” Now, if you know the movie, the word is “inconceivable”. Here I am talking about “intense”!! So, what do you think of when you hear intense to describe a person? Merriam-Webster defines the word as “existing in extreme degree,” “having or showing characteristic in extreme degree,” “marked by or expressive of great zeal, energy, determination, or concentration,” “exhibiting strong feeling or earnestness of purpose,” and finally, “deeply felt.” I would say I resemble these too. I like the words “Great Zeal” (assuming the Super Hero posture while saying it!) and I do embrace many of the other words in the definition of intense as well.
I say I resemble these words NOW with confidence. Growing up with this word as an adjective to describe me, as a personality characteristic, as the weapon used to diminish me in friendships or intimate relationships of the past, there wasn’t much confidence in my heart. I took the description as a character flaw, as a negative, as something to be fixed. Oh, how I was mistaken! Intensity is what brings my feelings to paper, paint to the canvas and determination in assisting my clients. It is what helps my friends and family with my analytical mind. It is my “energizer bunny” of my heart and soul. My intensity has been my constant companion, spurring me on and I am grateful. And, I make no apologies for it!
Recently, I was inspired to pull the threads of these thoughts about intense, “in-tents” and Intents together after sharing time with a friend and fellow Reiki Master. We were having an in-depth conversation and “jumped into the rabbit hole.” As we were talking, I shared that I
was recently described as “intense” AGAIN…saying it reminded me of my favorite joke growing up…as I told my friend the joke, he was doodling on a piece of paper…Here’s the joke: So, a guy walks into the doctor’s office saying I keep dreaming I am a teepee, I’m a wigwam… the doctor says, “Relax you’re too tense.” My friends doodle was a tent with a tree and the words under it… “In Tents”. We laughed because of the synchronicity of his drawing what I was saying, since we were down the rabbit hole. What it brought our discussion to was the need to disconnect and go camping. It afforded me the opportunity to share that while I love the outdoors, I am not a camper. I haven’t gone camping because I didn’t grow up that way. My parents weren’t the “outdoorsy” type, so I never learned about the ins and outs of camping. I showed my insecurity and vulnerability of not knowing. I was supported in this sharing with the invitation to go camping some time.
Of course, in my head, I hear “challenge accepted” and I will be going camping in the near future. What really rose to the top of this frothy mocha latte of discussion was the need to allow myself time. Time to let my intensity create my intents. Sitting quietly, practicing QiGong, painting or simply doing “nothing”, but whatever it is do it with INTENT. The art of doing nothing with intent is pure rest. Now because my inner Inigo is shouting… “I don’t think it means what you think it means!” I will go to the Merriam-Webster to define intent. So… as I looked it up, I hear my English major Mother’s voice saying, “you cannot define a word with a different tense of that same word!” Here in the definition, Merriam-Webster does it twice…intending and intention…but the take away of the meaning is as follows: purpose, volition, meaning, significance and connotation. (side bar…there are 6 definitions for intention ranging from healing, prayer and marriage to name a few!!)
So, as I drove home from that yummy evening of deep conversation and really being seen, what was percolating up was this question of “what is my intent, my purpose, my volition and my significance? What is the driving force that has me move into conversations, relationships, creativity and my healing work with such intensity?” The root of it all is simply LOVE. Now, that may sound a bit corny…but at the heart of everything thing I do with great ZEAL is Love, from the purest of places. I am not talking about “being in love” or “seeking love”…I am talking about the LIFE pulse of everything in our human existence. I am talking about true LIFE FORCE or Chi, Ki, Prana, Spirit. What is at the heart of all of it is LOVE. It is the breath and the breadth of all existence.
My friend had this quote from, Chief Crazy Horse, to share the other night: “I saluted the light within your eyes where the whole universe dwells. For when you are at that center within you and I am in that place within me, we shall be one.” This is what raises my intensity to get to know someone, to help someone, to create something…this is the place of the purest of LOVE it is ONENESS…It is the most sacred elixir and it can bring miracles. This is at the heart of my intensity. This is what you can experience “In Tents” in nature. This is what can heal our world with many holding this INTENT. Please LOVE in the extreme degree!
More to come in my next blog, “Love is Mystical”